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Monday, September 15, 2008
i feel as if an avalanche has just fallen on me. so totally shitty. tests which i'm not ready for, assignments i have trouble doing, and so many other commitments that i've somehow kicked my ass into. and i feel like a total retard time and again about the things that i do. it feels so lousy and insignificant. i feel like an idiot when i also think about how sometimes i just smile and smile and smile too much even at the wrong times. i think i'm just too happy. its stupid. its horrible. worst thing is i feel my relationships weakening, i feel loved ones drifting away. i know its not supposed to be top prioity right now but its something i dont need motivation treasuring. family, friends.. its probably my fault. and i'll try. |
